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What. The. Hell. 
Oh also. My art class is finished. Be prepared for some mediocre art things that I drew, solely for the reason that I am not very good at drawing and have little to no patience for drawing. I'd rather just get frustrated that my lines don't look nice or I have very little depth or variant in my shading. Anywaaaaaaay. I'm kind of back now. Ish. aka. University semester is over, and I'm supposed to be studying for exams, but that's proving to not hold my interest and is driving me back to the internet. 
So hi. I don't know if anyone's still around or anything... but hey. I'm not dead. Things are still kind of crappy. Work, School and Home life have been as difficult as always to juggle but I'm getting by on the hope that as soon as I graduate in the spring I will not have to waste my time on writing essays on moral failings and get back to writing how I want to write. Yay. 
Soliloquies spoken in rooms with coffins are not always meant to be soliloquies.
Especially if the coffin is occupied.
You will listen to my story with deaf ears and
not even the dead will have the nerve to interrupt.

I wrote you a letter to make you feel better,
but since you were dead, I read it instead.
Here were the words I wanted for you:

I waited for you. The sky turned red. I ate an apple. I waited for you. I dreamed of the dead. I dreamed of the living. I waited for you. I threw up behind the shed. I planted three flowers. I waited for you. You never came.  
Dear someone listening from the Shadows.
A breeze came along and their eyes slid shut, they never opened them again,
and I am wondering how to pray to all these American Gods,
when all I want to worship is the feeling of the wind on my skin.
Things are pushing up from the stained floorboards and
my lips are sunken from not having enough to say.
Shyness is my curse, and my weapon.
Without it I would spill all over the floor.
With it I am locked in.
Dear someone listening in the shadows,
I carry my heavy heart,
bound up in my tied tongue.
Unblocked
Let's try to get back into this old game again. 
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Glued into ill-fitting skin,
and I cannot sit still,
I cannot melt into the scenery,
I cannot give up.
I wish for
Falling into restless sleep on the curb at bus-stops,
or tripping into danger,
having the car collide with another car.
To look into the abyss and want to stay awhile
happens to occupy my mind all too much.
We don't know what lies beyond, but if it means no more fighting,
no more scratching, screaming, pushing existence.
If it means peace....
then I might contemplate closing my eyes.
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It's suicide prevention day, so I decided to write a poem about how I feel when I am at the lowest points and actually contemplating suicide. But, it is not the answer, because life isn't a question. It is a state of being that we have to hold on and stick with even though things get tough as balls. Those who do commit suicide on that note aren't weak, or selfish, but at the same time should not be glorified. It is not a way out, and it is not an avenue for peace. 
I've known a lot of people who've thought about hurting themselves, who have hurt themselves, who think that no one understands or cares. 
I urge you to get help. Even message me if you need a friend. I will listen. 
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So, you may have noticed I disappeared... the last thing I posted was in March...
I had this terrible period the last year where I felt like nothing I wrote was good enough, and that most of my stuff was incoherent, and derivative, and I really actually haven't written anything in ages. It's like a switch inside me turned off and the flood of poems I used to write just dried up. However, I picked up a new skill, I learned how to embroider and beadweave this summer, so that's a thing.  I'm a bit better now, and am going to keep working at the whole writing thing. Also I got two pet rabbits that I am the biggest suck for. I have a small netherland dwarf rabbit buck named Pippin, and a slightly larger lionhead rabbit doe named Lady. 
I am going to try to write again. It might take me a while to work on again, and I think I also would like to start writing some short prose pieces, but whatever happens, please have patience with me. I'm getting back on the horse. 
Also I'm probably going to be posting some sketches as well, because guess who's taking an art class?This girl

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Elle Spook
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Hello fellow deviants! I am Elle, and I live in Ontario,Canada. I like to write poetry, and that's probably what brought you to my page. I also knit and make jewellery.
Currently I'm working on a series of poems that are based on a list of prettiest words so that's why the majority of my poems have definitions. Here is the link if you are curious sesquipedaedalus.blogspot.com.… and if you do use it as prompts, let me know- I'd love to read what your take is on these words.
I also will do commissions for poetry and knitting and general fiction as well.
Plus: I am also looking for art to write poetry responses to- if you want me to write a response to a piece- let me know.
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What. The. Hell. 
Oh also. My art class is finished. Be prepared for some mediocre art things that I drew, solely for the reason that I am not very good at drawing and have little to no patience for drawing. I'd rather just get frustrated that my lines don't look nice or I have very little depth or variant in my shading. Anywaaaaaaay. I'm kind of back now. Ish. aka. University semester is over, and I'm supposed to be studying for exams, but that's proving to not hold my interest and is driving me back to the internet. 
So hi. I don't know if anyone's still around or anything... but hey. I'm not dead. Things are still kind of crappy. Work, School and Home life have been as difficult as always to juggle but I'm getting by on the hope that as soon as I graduate in the spring I will not have to waste my time on writing essays on moral failings and get back to writing how I want to write. Yay. 

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Laeneris Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2014  Student Writer
A hug for you. :iconsweethugplz: Hope you can feel better soon.
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Ashdancer Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014   General Artist
Happiest of birthdays!
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NotenSMSK Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Hapy birthday :la: I hope you are doing well and looking forward to you coming back :la:
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Mickadeth Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013
It would appear we're partners in writing! I've been looking through your stuff to get a feel for a style. I'm optimistic.
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La--Volpe Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You shall be writing with, for this round of Scratch That, :iconmickadeth:

Love your webcam btw. :heart:
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SovereignSin Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you for the fave! :D
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PrideofPanem Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2013  Student General Artist
You are welcome, good sir.
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:heart:
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PrideofPanem Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Student General Artist
Thank you for the watch <3
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Thanks for the fave, love. :heart:
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